It’s day one of the program. Today is all intro sessions. Intro to physical therapy, occupational therapy, pain management, relaxation, and mindfulness. I seem to be one of the most limited people in the program, but I also seem to know the most about pain and pain management. I had pain, and spent a lot of the day lying on a soft bench with my hand over my eyes while I listened to lectures. And I found that my pain would flare up but then die down again if I just waited. I didn’t have to leave and go be alone, like I am used to doing.
It was an exciting, energizing day. I kind of didn’t want to go home. I wish we were having a pain sleepover. The most pleasant part of today was being around other people my age with chronic pain. Everybody is smart, intelligent, and compassionate. And maybe a little too hard on themselves. I have something in common with these people, I thought. I just wanted to hug everyone. You’re here too!? I kept thinking.
The most unpleasant part of my day was actually when I got home and started to write this post. That’s when the day’s pain hit me. Doing this every day is going to kick my ass–in a good way I hope.
One thing I learned from today: A moderate amount of cussing is scientifically proven to dampen pain. So f*** this f****** pain!